What Should I Do With My Life?

Amid a fluctuating mental signal, I stop to ridiculously look around for inspiration. Do I grab the four books I have started to read, or surf the net and see what I can stumble upon? I am embarrassed to neither admit nor recognize that life and the people who have given me these books are trying to tell me something!

 The first valuable gem of a gift I have received last Yuletide Season is a Leadership Bible from an amazing lady I met at work. I made a mental promise that I shall read from the start- from the Old Testament moving up to the New to brush up on all of what I could no longer commit to memory. For a while I would jumpstart my day by taking in lessons from the Scriptures, until, I allowed distractions and I started skipping days. I needed something to alleviate the monotony of understanding the profoundness of the Written Word. To remedy this, the next book I began to explore was from my bookworm sister. So, I buried my head into another material that would yank me out of the state I was in. The 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene and Joost Elffers was a thick and heavy read. It was interesting enough in the beginning, until it started to scare me. In the silence and confines of my room, my mind started to chatter. While I absorb line after line, rule after rule, I realized, I have given life to the truths in the pages. She said, it will be a big help in bringing order into what seemed to me was a perpetually chaotic existence in the office, but she did not tell me to take heed of the psychological work out it would put me through. Bewilderment set in once more. On my birthday, my tireless sister, once more gave me a book by M.J Ryan, titled, The Power of Patience. I instantly knew there was a more profound motive. I had given her my sincere gratitude. With little resistance, I started on the book. With the pounding voice of conscience, of whether to sink into a good read, playing with my toddlers, answering and shooting out my emails or strategizing on my next business move- I pulled myself into what I considered as a more productive return on my time and energy. Needless to say, I have put down the book again. In the middle of my conversation with one of our brilliant writers, I received a SMS from another writer friend asking if I had received something from the courier. I was surprised to have received the last book of four! I am bowled over by her thoughtfulness, the burden of a fourth book I will need to finish and the inescapable nudge that is trying very hard to tell me something. What Should I Do With My Life? by Po Bronson is the heaven-sent, hopefully, the last messenger. No matter where I slice it, I can no longer convince myself that this is a fluke. The four urgent facets of my life have caught up with me for attention. I can no longer shelve it, nor rationalise over a more important task. I have been thinking long and hard, about Po Bronson’s ultimate question I now so much need to build an answer for over time. And this I hope will set for me the discipline I need, to deposit each task in its pocket, and not fidget each time I itch to multi-task or to trade the more substantial pursuits for the transitory ones I mistake to be of more value at times. Let me share with you three tips that I have extracted from “The Turn of The Tide” by Arthur Gordon: 1. Listen Carefully 2. Try Reaching Back 3. Examine Your Motives 4. Write Your Worries On the Sand Let’s pin our ears back delicately to the faint messages and the niggling voice in our heads, get in touch with our past, sincerely scrutinize our intent and wilfully set down our fears behind.